why I smoke pot

I never was a social smoker - I was only ever interested in marijuana medicinally, like so:

List of conditions for which I find cannabis helpful:

• Chronic pain and stiffness in back and neck, especially in the morning. Can't elongate spine.
• General stiffness in muscles and joints. Pain in knees and ankles from excess weight and injuries. Relaxes tissue enough to stretch and strengthen.
• Posture correction - enables me to stand straight for short periods of time without pain and retrain the weak muscles causing the pain.
• PMS cramps (severe)

MOOD

• Lifetime history (since puberty) of severe depression, periodically suicidal.
• Lifetime history of anxiety, social anxiety, autistic over-stimulation/melt-downs, hyper alertness, irritability, panic attacks, phobias, nervousness, and obsessiveness. Improves concentration and focus in some areas. Major improvements in functionality, motivation, and productivity.
• PMS - intense manic mood swings, hyper alertness, aggressiveness, and poor impulse control.
• Possible PTSD from childhood physical abuse, bullying, rape, and other interpersonal trauma.
• History of violence, rage, abuse, and assault.
• Cigarette cravings (smoked 17 years 1989-2006)

ENERGY

• Blood sugar (?) symptom suppression (weakness, exhaustion, dizziness, nausea)
• Obesity/weight control - helps with appetite suppression when I don't need to eat
• Chronic fatigue
• Lifetime chronic insomnia (trouble getting to sleep, not staying asleep)
• Decreased coordination/clumsiness/accidents/personal injury
• falling up/down stairs
• falling off bicycle, bus, curb, level ground
• walking into walls/posts/trees/corners/counters/furniture/pretty much anything
• increased burns and cuts in the kitchen
• "mystery bruises"

I used to keep a teensy tiny bit around in case of emergency. Thing is, I've since found that it works better (for me, anyway) as a steady supplement than as an on-the-spot medication. Some uses are immediate, yes - but others seem to have more of a cumulative, long term effect. Rather like any other "normal" medication or supplement, it works better if I have a steady trickle in my system at all times.